Holy fuck I can’t stop smoking cigarettes

It feels so good to reconnect with old friends. To see and hear that they are doing so well for themselves, that they are so happy and fullfilled with the life path they have assumed.

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh RADIOHEAD ON THE 16th fuck yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’ve got this.

If you can see this
I want you to know that I can see now
A boy found me
He’s a Pisces just like Lauren
and I do get it now, I swear.
I was wrong
I will say it again
I was wrong.
for my delusion
for my manipulation and insecurity

You were right.
I will say it again: you were right, I needed to heal
I needed to sleep
I needed to understand
I didn’t know myself as well as I had always preached
and I humble myself before your unconditional efforts at healing me
despite the fact that I was responsible for myself completely from the very start.

And I love you, I will always
in that way which you declared I could never understand.

What am I doing that is so wrong
I have got my head on straight now
I know what I want
And where I will go
but you don’t believe me

Could it have been the lies that I told you to protect you, to keep you in your oblivion which you so value?

I knew what I had to do
And I am ready now to take decisive action
but I can’t stay
and you have just validated that.

I don’t understand where I have gone wrong
and for some reason, I can’t seem to believe you when you explain to me where that is

You are still my family.
Even though you won’t talk to me

I may never dream about you
And we may not recognize each other in ten years

Regardless, we shall march on to seemingly different drumlines
But you and I both know
That nothing is ever what it seems.

Me: brushing my teeth in bus terminal bathroom, looking over to find that the lady beside me is doing the same thing…

Me: “rough morning eh?”
Other lady : * laughs*

I literally just jumped out of bed, put my toothpaste in my bag and left for the bus. I am too Underpaid to rape myself like this with the fist of socially acceptable, employed behavior.

I will not give up, No matter how hard I must toil.

Sometimes I just like to fight when really I am just being mad because I have anger issues. Y iz life so Cheezy